Charles Bukowski Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977 (1977)



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(1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 they'd come around and

2 they'd ask

3 "you finished your

4 2nd novel yet?"

5 "no."

6 "whatsamatta? whatsamatta

7 that you can't

8 finish it?"

9 "hemorrhoids and

10 insomnia."

11 "maybe you've lost

12 it?"

13 "lost what?"

14 "you know."


15 now when they come

16 around I tell them,

17 "yeh. I finished

18 it. be out in Sept."

19 "you finished it?"

20 "yeh."

21 "well, listen, I gotta

22 go."
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23 even the cat

24 here in the courtyard

25 won't come to my door

26 anymore.

27 it's nice.

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Bukowski, Charles:Chopin Bukowski [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems,

1974-1977 (1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 this is my piano.

2 the phone rings and people ask,

3 what are you doing? how about

4 getting drunk with us?

5 and I say,

6 I'm at my piano.

7 what?

8 I'm at my piano.

9 I hang up.

10 people need me. I fill

11 them. if they can't see me

12 for a while they get desperate, they get

13 sick.

14 but if I see them too often

15 I get sick. it's hard to feed

16 without getting fed.

17 my piano says things back to

18 me.


19 sometimes the things are

20 scrambled and not very good.

21 other times

22 I get as good and lucky as

23 Chopin.

24 sometimes I get out of practice

25 out of tune. that's

26 all right.


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27 I can sit down and vomit on the

28 keys

29 but it's my

30 vomit.

31 it's better than sitting in a room

32 with 3 or 4 people and

33 their pianos.

34 this is my piano

35 and it is better than theirs.

36 and they like it and they do not

37 like it.

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Bukowski, Charles:gloomy lady [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977

(1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 she sits up there

2 drinking wine

3 while her husband

4 is at work.

5 she puts quite

6 some importance

7 upon getting her

8 poems published

9 in the little

10 magazines.

11 she's had two or

12 three of her slim

13 volumes of poems

14 done in mimeo.

15 she has two or

16 three children

17 between the ages

18 of 6 and 15.

19 she is no longer

20 the beautiful woman

21 she was. she sends

22 photos of herself

23 sitting upon a rock

24 by the ocean

25 alone and damned.

26 I could have had

27 her once. I wonder

28 if she thinks I

29 could have

30 saved her?

31 in all her poems

32 her husband is

33 never mentioned.

34 but she does


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35 talk about her

36 garden

37 so we know that's

38 there, anyhow,

39 and maybe she

40 fucks the rosebuds

41 and finches

42 before she writes

43 her poems

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Bukowski, Charles:cockroach [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977

(1977), Black Sparrow Press]


1 the cockroach crouched

2 against the tile

3 while I was pissing and as

4 I turned my head

5 he hauled his butt

6 into a crack.

7 I got the can and sprayed

8 and sprayed and sprayed

9 and finally the roach came out

10 and gave me a very dirty look.

11 then he fell down into

12 the bathtub and I watched

13 him dying

14 with a subtle pleasure

15 because I paid the rent

16 and he didn't.

17 I picked him up with

18 some greenblue toilet

19 paper and flushed him

20 away. that's all there

21 was to that, except

22 around Hollywood and

23 Western we have to

24 keep doing it.

25 they say some day that

26 tribe is going to

27 inherit the earth

28 but we're going to

29 make them wait a

30 few months.

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Bukowski, Charles: who in the hell is Tom Jones? [from Love is a Dog from Hell:

Poems, 1974-1977 (1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 I was shacked with a

2 24 year old girl from

3 New York City for

4 two weeks---about

5 the time of the garbage

6 strike out there, and

7 one night my 34 year

8 old woman arrived and

9 she said, "I want to see

10 my rival." she did

11 and then she said, "o,

12 you're a cute little thing!"

13 next I knew there was a

14 screech of wildcats---

15 such screaming and scratch-

16 ing, wounded animal moans,

17 blood and piss ...

18 I was drunk and in my

19 shorts. I tried to

20 separate them and fell,

21 wrenched my knee. then

22 they were through the screen

23 door and down the walk

24 and out in the street.

25 squadcars full of cops

26 arrived. a police heli-

27 copter circled overhead.

28 I stood in the bathroom

29 and grinned in the mirror.

30 it's not often at the age

31 of 55 that such splendid
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32 things occur.

33 better than the Watts

34 riots.

35 the 34 year old

36 came back in. she had

37 pissed all over her-

38 self and her clothing

39 was torn and she was

40 followed by 2 cops who

41 wanted to know why.

42 pulling up my shorts

43 I tried to explain.

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Bukowski, Charles:defeat [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977 (1977),

Black Sparrow Press]

1 listening to Bruckner on the radio

2 wondering why I'm not half mad

3 over the latest breakup with my

4 latest girlfriend

5 wondering why I'm not driving the streets

6 drunk

7 wondering why I'm not in the bedroom

8 in the dark

9 in the grievous dark

10 pondering

11 ripped by half-thoughts.

12 I suppose

13 that at last

14 like the average man:

15 I've known too many women

16 and instead of thinking,

17 I wonder who's fucking her now?

18 I think

19 she's giving some other poor son of a bitch

20 much trouble right now.

21 listening to Bruckner on the radio

22 seems so peaceful.

23 too many women have gone through.

24 I am at last alone

25 without being alone.

26 I pick up a Grumbacher paint brush

27 and clean my fingernails with the hard sharp end.

28 I notice a wall socket.

29 look, I've won.

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Bukowski, Charles:traffic signals [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems,

1974-1977 (1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 the old folks play a game

2 in the park overlooking the sea

3 shoving markers across cement

4 with wooden sticks.

5 four play, two on each side

6 and 18 or 20 others sit in

7 the sun and watch

8 I notice this as I move

9 toward the public facility

10 as my car is being repaired.

11 an old cannon sits in the park

12 rusted and useless.

13 six or seven sailboats ride

14 the sea below.

15 I finish my duty

16 come out

17 and they are still playing.

18 one of the women is heavily rouged

19 wearing false eyelashes and smoking

20 a cigarette.

21 the men are very thin

22 very pale

23 wear wristwatches that hurt

24 their wrists.

25 the other woman is very fat

26 and giggles

27 each time a score is made

28 some of them are my age.

29 they disgust me

30 the way they wait for death


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31 with as much passion

32 as a traffic signal.

33 these are the people who believe advertisements

34 these are the people who buy dentures on credit

35 these are the people who celebrate holidays

36 these are the people who have grandchildren

37 these are the people who vote

38 these are the people who have funerals

39 these are the dead

40 the smog

41 the stink in the air

42 the lepers.

43 these are almost everybody

44 finally.

45 seagulls are better

46 seaweed is better

47 dirty sand is better

48 if I could turn that old cannon

49 on them

50 and make it work

51 I would.

52 they disgust me.

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Bukowski, Charles:462-0614 [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977

(1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 I get many phonecalls now.

2 They are all alike.

3 "are you Charles Bukowski,

4 the writer?"

5 "yes," I tell them.

6 and they tell me

7 that they understand my

8 writing,

9 and some of them are writers

10 or want to be writers

11 and they have dull and

12 horrible jobs

13 and they can't face the room

14 the apartment

15 the walls

16 that night---

17 they want somebody to talk

18 to,


19 and they can't believe

20 that I can't help them

21 that I don't know the words.

22 they can't believe

23 that often now

24 I double up in my room

25 grab my gut

26 and say

27 "Jesus Jesus Jesus, not

28 again!"

29 they can't believe

30 that the loveless people

31 the streets

32 the loneliness

33 the walls

34 are mine too.

35 and when I hang up the phone
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36 they think I have held back my

37 secret.

38 I don't write out of

39 knowledge.

40 when the phone rings

41 I too would like to hear words

42 that might ease

43 some of this.

44 that's why my number's

45 listed.

[Page 113]
Bukowski, Charles:photographs [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977

(1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 they photograph you on your porch

2 and on your couch

3 and standing in the courtyard

4 or leaning against your car

5 these photographers

6 women with big asses

7 which look better to you

8 than do their eyes or their souls

9 ---this playing at author

10 it's real Hemingway

11 James Joyce

12 stageshit

13 but look---

14 there are the books

15 you've written them

16 you haven't been to Paris

17 but you've written all those books

18 there behind you

19 (and others not there,

20 lost or stolen)

21 all you've got to do

22 is look like Bukowski

23 for the cameras

24 but


25 you keep watching

26 those

27 astonishingly big asses

28 and thinking---

29 somebody else is getting

30 it
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31 "look into my eyes,"

32 they say and click their cameras

33 and flash their cameras

34 and fondle their cameras

35 Hemingway used to box or go

36 fishing or to the bullfights

37 but after they leave

38 you jerk-off into the sheets

39 and take a hot bath

40 they never send the photos

41 like they promise to send the photos

42 and the astonishingly big asses are

43 gone forever

44 and you've been a fine literary fellow---

45 now alive

46 dead soon enough

47 looking into and at their eyes and souls

48 and more.

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Bukowski, Charles:social [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977 (1977),

Black Sparrow Press]

1 the blue pencil of the wave

2 shots of yellow road

3 a steering wheel

4 an insane woman sitting

5 next to you

6 complaining as the ocean

7 creams-off

8 and people in yellow and

9 white

10 campers

11 block your way

12 a frantic

13 time

14 as you listen

15 guilty of this and

16 guilty of that

17 you admit

18 this and that

19 but it's not

20 enough

21 she wants splendid

22 conquest

23 and you're weary of

24 splendid

25 conquest

26 getting there

27 she climbs out

28 walks toward the

29 house
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30 you piss across the

31 fender of your car

32 drunk on beer

33 little spots of you

34 dripping down into

35 the dust

36 the dry

37 dust

38 zipping up you

39 march in to

40 meet her

41 friends.

[Page 117]


Bukowski, Charles:one to the breastplate [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems,

1974-1977 (1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 I have a saying, "the tough ones always come

2 back."

3 but Vera was kinder than most,

4 and so I was surprised when

5 she arrived that night

6 and said, "let me in."

7 "no, no, I'm working on a sonnet."

8 "I'll just stay a minute, then I'll

9 leave."

10 "Vera, if I let you in you'll be here

11 for 3 or 4 days."

12 it was night and I hadn't turned the

13 porch light on so I couldn't see it

14 coming

15 but

16 she threw a right that

17 exploded in the center of my

18 chest.

19 "baby, that was a beautiful punch.

20 now move off."

21 then I closed the door.

22 she was back again in 5 minutes:

23 "Hank, I can't find my car, I

24 swear I can't find my car. help

25 me find my car!"

26 I saw my friend Bobby-the-Riff


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27 walking by. "hey, Bobby, help

28 this one find her car. we'll

29 even it up later."

30 they went off together.

31 later Bobby said they found her

32 car parked on somebody's front

33 lawn, lights on and motor

34 running.

35 I haven't heard from Vera

36 since

37 unless she's the one

38 who keeps phoning at

39 2 and 3 and 4 a.m. in the

40 morning

41 and doesn't answer when I

42 say "hello."

43 but Bobby says he

44 can handle her

45 so I've decided to turn her over

46 to Bobby.

47 she lives on a side street somewhere

48 in Glendale

49 and I help him unfold the

50 roadmap as we sip our

51 diet Schlitz.

[Page 119]


Bukowski, Charles:the worst and the best [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems,

1974-1977 (1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 in the hospitals and jails

2 it's the worst

3 in madhouses

4 it's the worst

5 in penthouses

6 it's the worst

7 in skid row flophouses

8 it's the worst

9 at poetry readings

10 at rock concerts

11 at benefits for the disabled

12 it's the worst

13 at funerals

14 at weddings

15 it's the worst

16 at parades

17 at skating rinks

18 at sexual orgies

19 it's the worst

20 at midnight

21 at 3 a.m.

22 at 5:45 p.m.

23 it's the worst

24 falling through the sky

25 firing squads

26 that's the best

27 thinking of India

28 looking at popcorn stands

29 watching the bull get the matador

30 that's the best

31 boxed lightbulbs

32 an old dog scratching


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33 peanuts in a celluloid bag

34 that's the best

35 spraying roaches

36 a clean pair of stockings

37 natural guts defeating natural talent

38 that's the best

39 in front of firing squads

40 throwing crusts to seagulls

41 slicing tomatoes

42 that's the best

43 rugs with cigarette burns

44 cracks in sidewalks

45 waitresses still sane

46 that's the best

47 my hands dead

48 my heart dead

49 silence

50 adagio of rocks

51 the world ablaze

52 that's the best

53 for me.

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Bukowski, Charles:coupons [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977

(1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 cigarettes wetted with beer from

2 the night before

3 you light one

4 gag


5 open the door for air

6 and on your doorstep

7 is a dead sparrow

8 his head and breast

9 chewed away.

10 hanging from the doorknob

11 is an ad from the All American

12 Burger

13 consisting of several coupons

14 which

15 say

16 that with the purchase

17 of a burger

18 from Feb. 12 thru Feb. 15

19 you can get a free

20 regular size bag of french

21 fries and one

22 10 oz. cup of coca cola.

23 I take the ad

24 wrap the sparrow

25 carry him to the trash bin

26 and dump him

27 in.

28 look:

29 forsaking fries and coke

30 to help keep

31 my city

32 clean.

[Page 122]
Bukowski, Charles:luck [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977 (1977),

Black Sparrow Press]

1 what's bad about all

2 this


3 is watching people

4 drinking coffee and

5 waiting. I would

6 douse them all

7 with luck. they need

8 it. they need it

9 worse than I do.

10 I sit in cafes

11 and watch them

12 waiting. I suppose

13 there's not much

14 else to do. the

15 flies walk up and

16 down the windows

17 and we drink our

18 coffee and pretend

19 not to look at

20 each other. I

21 wait with them.

22 between the move-

23 ment of the flies

24 people walk by.

[Page 123]
Bukowski, Charles:dog [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977 (1977),

Black Sparrow Press]

1 a single dog

2 walking alone on a hot sidewalk of

3 summer

4 appears to have the power

5 of ten thousand gods.

6 why is this?

[Page 124]
Bukowski, Charles:trench warfare [from Love is a Dog from Hell: Poems, 1974-1977

(1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 sick with the flu

2 drinking beer

3 my radio on loud

4 enough to overcome

5 the sounds of the

6 stereo people who

7 have just moved

8 into the court

9 across the way.

10 asleep or awake

11 they play their

12 set at top volume

13 leaving their

14 doors and windows

15 open.

16 they are each

17 18, married, wear

18 red shoes,

19 are blonde,

20 slim.

21 they play

22 everything: jazz,

23 classical, rock,

24 country, modern

25 as long as it is

26 loud.

27 this is the problem

28 of being poor:

29 we must share each

30 other's sounds.

31 last week it was

32 my turn:

33 there were two women
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34 in here

35 fighting each other

36 and then they

37 ran up the walk

38 screaming.

39 the police came.

40 now it's their

41 turn.

42 now I am walking

43 up and down in

44 my dirty shorts,

45 two rubber earplugs

46 stuck deep into

47 my ears.

48 I even consider

49 murder.

50 such rude little

51 rabbits!

52 walking little pieces

53 of snot!

54 but in our land

55 and in our way

56 there has never

57 been a chance;

58 it's only when

59 things are not

60 going too badly

61 for a while

62 that we forget.

63 someday they'll

64 each be dead

65 someday they'll

66 each have a

67 separate coffin

68 and it will be

69 quiet.


[Page 126]

70 but right now

71 it's Bob Dylan

72 Bob Dylan Bob

73 Dylan all the

74 way.


[Page 127]
Bukowski, Charles:the night I fucked my alarm clock [from Love is a Dog from

Hell: Poems, 1974-1977 (1977), Black Sparrow Press]


1 once

2 starving in Philadelphia

3 I had a small room

4 it was evening going into night

5 and I stood at my window on the 3rd floor

6 in the dark and looked down into a

7 kitchen across the way on the 2nd floor

8 and I saw a beautiful blonde girl

9 embrace a young man there and kiss him

10 with what seemed hunger

11 and I stood and watched until they broke

12 away.

13 then I turned and switched on the room light.

14 I saw my dresser and my dresser drawers

15 and my alarm clock on the dresser.

16 I took my alarm clock

17 to bed with me and

18 fucked it until the hands dropped off.

19 then I went out and walked the streets

20 until my feet blistered.

21 when I got back I walked to the window

22 and looked down and across the way

23 and the light in their kitchen was

24 out.


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Bukowski, Charles:when I think of myself dead [from Love is a Dog from Hell:

Poems, 1974-1977 (1977), Black Sparrow Press]

1 I think of automobiles parked in a

2 parking lot

3 when I think of myself dead

4 I think of frying pans

5 when I think of myself dead

6 I think of somebody making love to you

7 when I'm not around

8 when I think of myself dead

9 I have trouble breathing

10 when I think of myself dead

11 I think of all the people waiting to die

12 when I think of myself dead

13 I think I won't be able to drink water anymore

14 when I think of myself dead

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